its not always rainbows and butterflies

I wrote this the other day while on a walk…


Its rare that I have nothing to say but sometimes, it happens.  I go into mute mode. You’d be surprised at my introvertedness when I’m home. After a long day or week of publishing a constant stream of content, I so often just want to hit mute and shut it all off.  Its not easy putting yourself out there all the time. I stay in my room or can go days, hardly saying a word at all.

Working hard and staying positive are really important to me. So often I hear “I’d like to blog/tweet but I don’t have time” or “where do you find the time”. Urgh, make the time! I work hard and stay positive do it because I love  what I’m doing and I want to succeed. Don’t you?

I choose to publish moastly rainbows, unicorns and happy stuff, however, it still rains now and then. I’ve started unfollowing people on twitter lately that have a negative tome to their tweets. If I hear ‘whining’ or ‘wah-wah’ when I read it, I’m shutting it off. I don’t wanna catch your downer-fever.

I really believe in the power of positive thought. If you act positive and think positive, positive things will happen. So many times the universe has shown me this is true. So, if you’ve been feeling downer lately, throw it out the  damn window and start smiling. You’ll feel better as soon as you do 🙂

i’ll love you forever

Today I logged into Facebook as I do every day. I check the pages for work post, make changes  etc,  then I check my own messages. I had two messages and not spam about some event I don’t care about. One from Dad and one from a friend in New Zealand, her Mum, one of Mum’s oldest friends, passed away yesterday.  Her name is Julie.

Julie came to visit us a few years ago. It was so much fun to have her around. She came to visit with her daughter and gave us this book called Succulent Wild Woman by SARK. Julie filled the book with gold confetti angels, stuck  between pages and all down the spine, throughout the whole book. When we opened they fell all over the floor and it was beautiful. To this day angels turn up around Mum’s house in the darnedest places.

“This book is my glowing invitation to you — to live a rich, succulent life! I explore love, sexuality, romance, money, fat, fear and creativity. It’s a little bit like reading my diarywith permission. Succulence is powerful! and so are we as women.”

SARK writes a journal and read a bunch of her posts today. They’re happy and inspiring, full of colour and bright thoughts and markers and stars and stuff like that.  It’s really weird going to someones Facebook after they’ve passed, I wanted to post on it  but I didn’t and it made me feel sad for a minute. Then, I read all the most recent activity and was brightened by her energy.

Julie was inspiring to everyone she knew. She had MS and when she got better one time she decided to go on world tour.  So she did. Julie looked at the world in a way that made you feel so happy just to know her.  She will live in my heart forever. I

‘m thinking of y0u and promise to keep working hard and making the most our of each day.

you are what you tweet

A while back I posted a wordle (here) that was a misture of my most common words used on my blog. I did this one of my most used words in Tweets. Most common word on both (aside from RT) is LOVE.

LOVE. Love is all you need.

I used Tweet Stats and Wordle.

hearts on fire i reach out to you tonight

Big ups to Darren who does my hair for giving me exactly what I want. I love it. His salon is on Queen Street across from the West side of Trinity Bellwoods. Go visit him, he’s nice.

why you lion to me baby, rarrrr

I was really busy today with work and didn’t have time to bloggy blog until now! I usually develop a mild anxiety if I don’t update. Oh man, you should see me if whole day goes by without internet or blogging, I start scratching and pacing like a total crack head nut job.

I wore these shoes today, wanted to give them another go.  Last time I wore them my feet were torn to shreds and hurting for at least a week. Shoes, I have a message for you “you’re cute but it’s OVER, it’s not you, it’s me, you hurt ME. I wanna be with you, inside you but the pain is unbearable.”

Wore this shirt today, one of my fav’s I ordered from Threadless.  On my way back from meeting Abby to talk Degrassi I got stopped by L’oreal. Really good pickup line “you have amazing style, can we take your picture”. Obvs I was like “yeah”. Turns out one of the photog’s does work for MuchMTV and I uploaded a bunch of his Juno photos last week. Small world, totes.

Good thing I brought flip flops to walk home in the rain. RAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRR!