It’s not often that I have nothing to say. I’m not sure how to handle everything that’s going on. It’s hard to believe this is happening.
I feel like hitting pause on everything because our health is really what matters. How can life continue in any normal way? But things do continue like payments and deadlines. It’s hard to take a break when you need to monitor the situation. You know you should look away but you can’t because it’s right here affecting everything you do. On the computer, in your email, on social media, tv, every time you go to the fridge and think about your food.
I should do something to make myself feel better. I haven’t gone to the gym in a couple of days and I don’t want to lose my mojo. I finally got it going after a struggle up fitness hill. Today I made a nice curry and cooked some of our favourites. Did a face mask and a hair mask but it didn’t take away the knot of anxiety in my chest.
Last winter I spent a lot of time at home because of my injury and the insane amount of ice outside. Since then, I really benefitted from the work I did around the house during that time. I completely moved my room around so I had a nice workspace, organized my closet, sorted every bin, reorganized the cupboards, spice drawer. It gave me sanity in a time where I felt I couldn’t go anywhere and I didn’t feel like myself. It was hard but I made it through and learned a lot about myself in the process.
I’ve been trying not to touch my face if I’m outside and it’s really hard to not touch your face. I wish I had started this practise years ago because I know it’s smart. I still have nerve damage on the right side of my face so I get little pains where I want to itch it. It drives me crazy. Probably makes me look crazy too.
We all know that we need to stay at home. Our patience preparedness, work, finances, relationships, mental health, everything is stressed. I don’t have anything to say other than I am here, on the other side of this screen inside at my house too.
Sending you love through the internet,