some times i don’t feel like it

I walked around for about an hour thinking about my life. I was having realizations and I felt like a crazy person.

It was as if I was in a fog. I was having anxiety.

Sometimes I freak out. Sometimes I don’t want to be on the internet anymore. Sometimes I don’t know what to do about stuff and sometimes I forget things.  I started freaking about my last minute trip to a foreign country. Panicked. Instant attack.

I left the store. I walked down the street back in my own fog again.  I’m nervous about going but then think not going would be silly too. For a bunch of different reasons.  It’s a chance to relax and go some place  cool with bunch of cool old friends. Relax.

I’m packing one bag;  one nice outfiit, one dress, one piece bathing suit, one yoga mat. This is the relax retreat. A true mini vacation/airport tour. Vanilla as some may say.

I know when I come back Sunday I’ll have had lots of time with self.  I love traveling; airport, airplane, people, waiting, watching, thinking, moving.  I love being in motion.

12 Comments

  1. BostonBob
    July 23, 2009 / 5:06 am

    Sounds like you have a fine plan for Mexico. Take it in, enjoy and relax. Who knows, you may never go again. Good self time. XXOO

  2. shanealexander
    July 23, 2009 / 6:03 am

    i'm on vacation now. i was having coffee yesterday and noticed a nice little random act of kindness from a women. blog later, but yeah. it's nice to take in new sights – even though detroit isn't really that new to me. it's old. but everything is kinda new after you leave it for a couple of years, right?

  3. July 23, 2009 / 8:30 am

    You got this lady, it's gonna be great… a little down time, some adventure, no more panicking kay! Don't bother about Ustreaming from down there, just take your camera and do your usual thing and make sure to do a lot of nothing, too.

  4. July 23, 2009 / 8:36 am

    thanks so much guys. i'm looking forward to it today & don't feel as much anxiety! confirmed that it's gonna be really relaxed which is perfect! yay! Plus, it's gonna be raining here all weekend! Sorry. I will post sunshiney photos though!

  5. dw
    July 23, 2009 / 9:50 am

    have fun, kc, we'll get together when you get back. Give me a call.

  6. e1e
    July 23, 2009 / 12:17 pm

    You will bring sunshine to Mexico as you do with anywhere you go! Make Mexico Happy!

  7. shanealexander
    July 23, 2009 / 1:03 pm

    i'm on vacation now. i was having coffee yesterday and noticed a nice little random act of kindness from a women. blog later, but yeah. it's nice to take in new sights – even though detroit isn't really that new to me. it's old. but everything is kinda new after you leave it for a couple of years, right?

  8. July 23, 2009 / 3:30 pm

    You got this lady, it's gonna be great… a little down time, some adventure, no more panicking kay! Don't bother about Ustreaming from down there, just take your camera and do your usual thing and make sure to do a lot of nothing, too.

  9. July 23, 2009 / 3:36 pm

    thanks so much guys. i'm looking forward to it today & don't feel as much anxiety! confirmed that it's gonna be really relaxed which is perfect! yay! Plus, it's gonna be raining here all weekend! Sorry. I will post sunshiney photos though!

  10. dw
    July 23, 2009 / 4:50 pm

    have fun, kc, we'll get together when you get back. Give me a call.

  11. e1e
    July 23, 2009 / 7:17 pm

    You will bring sunshine to Mexico as you do with anywhere you go! Make Mexico Happy!

  12. MakebabywithCasie
    July 23, 2009 / 7:55 pm

    Good. You need a break from the craziness. You should relax have fun there and practice making baby with my cousin Dirty Sanchez. He famous for make baby with lots of Gringos. You like him. When you come back we can start make baby again.

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