Once I thought I lost the contents my first external hard drive. It was November 16, 2005. I was heart broken. Like no other love I’ve ever had, it was my everything.

Devastated. Distraught. Thinking about that day now, and you reading this, my heart, it still hurts, feels like like a day old punch.

I went to the bar and I got a martini. What the hell else was I supposed to do, I LOST  goddamn EVERYTHING?! There was a hole in my heart. And it was bleeding. So I wrote…

#1

now i must write.
today i think i lost my work, my life my story.
my external drive showed up empty.
my brain is very full.
the words i wrote, can not be gone.
i must remember what is lost.
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#2

where what now
here me loud
my story goes untold
a life worth living
a legend will unfold

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#3

life lost.
a legend burried deep within the walls
four of them that hold my life
a broken link holds it togehter
a photo in my mind
it is all remembered.
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Later that day, I decided to take all the cords apart (there were two to connect it to my PC, it was 2006) and put them back together.

It turned back on. I didn’t  lose anything. The end.

Lessons learned:

1) Make sure you back up. 2) Drama inspires creativity.  3) I might be rtrd. 🙂