they weren’t just a pair of boots to me. they became part of my life, i loved them. i would wear them all the time and when they were gone things just never seemed the same.
i though about them and everytime the weather said rain i missed them a little more. i don’t know where they went but i got a replacement to fill the empty space on my feet when it rains. 
the forecast is calling rain for a week i say let the rain shine. white wellies.
i forgot my damn umbrella. you have a bunch of brolly’s at home, idiot. i want sunnies, mum and pat are enjoying my hand-me-downs. i wonder when jack will realize who mary jane is. he’s so stupid. rain all bloody weekend. where did summer go? know him, don’t make eye contact. nice pants, loser. getting aggravated by everyone. do i want a coffee?
i got a jerk sandwich and thought of you. urgh, why do you have a nose ring dude? you’re not pulling it off very well for your over 30 age. why is everyone staring at me for fucks sake? am i naked? i like wearing hats. that orphan movie should be called there’s something about esther. freaky.
kinda want one of those cheesy michael jackson shirts in china town. it’s so smelly and sick around here. if you wanna do something to stop eating, just go to china town. sick. thinking about the kitchens makes my stomach turn. nice dress, bad shoes. you’re an idiot.
they’re gonna turn, you’ll get hit if you cross right now. i wonder what that company does? i forgot i have a huge eagle tattoo on my back. get batteries. get me home already. here comes the rain. no just kidding, spitting. last night was fun. so muggy out. yum, coleslaw. hurry up elevator. i’m getting pissed off. you’re not even gonna eat the jerk. what should i do? here comes the sun. here comes the sun.
Last year there was a raging party for our building, the Cityplace mixer. Last night, it happened again. It’s funny how many people live in such a small area, and how many I know. 
I invited my friend Keri, the Canadian Explorer to come and enjoy the free food, drinks and entertainment. I made a friend who works for UPS but I can’t find your card so when you read this please email me. I’m taking you up on the new stickers offer so me & UPS can be BFF’s!
They go all out man. Mime, card trick guy, magician, dancing girls, balloon makers, airbrusher, fire spinner (friend Calen), and all kinds of carnival stuff like cotton candy, popcorn and candy apples. Fun.
Food was stellar. I had dinner and filled right up. BBQ shrimp & scallop skewers, fresh made sushi and a couple beverages.
The sun went down and the music went up. I loved the dancing Bollywood act. I wanna take a class. I think I said ‘I love this party’ about 48 times. There’s some more photos here.
Have a good day. Happy Friday!
I walked around for about an hour thinking about my life. I was having realizations and I felt like a crazy person.
It was as if I was in a fog. I was having anxiety.
Sometimes I freak out. Sometimes I don’t want to be on the internet anymore. Sometimes I don’t know what to do about stuff and sometimes I forget things. I started freaking about my last minute trip to a foreign country. Panicked. Instant attack.
I left the store. I walked down the street back in my own fog again. I’m nervous about going but then think not going would be silly too. For a bunch of different reasons. It’s a chance to relax and go some place cool with bunch of cool old friends. Relax.
I’m packing one bag; one nice outfiit, one dress, one piece bathing suit, one yoga mat. This is the relax retreat. A true mini vacation/airport tour. Vanilla as some may say.
I know when I come back Sunday I’ll have had lots of time with self. I love traveling; airport, airplane, people, waiting, watching, thinking, moving. I love being in motion.
i took a little walk this afternoon past the place we met. it reminded me of you. i remember you saying ‘even if the coffee wasn’t so good i’d still come for the music’. the music is always good. you told your friend ‘i’m gonna go talk to that girl’. i’m glad you did.
i’ve been feeling very positive and inspired despite drinking both nights this week. i managed to get to bed at a decent hour. taking a b50 complex every day helps too. sleeping with a sleep mask over my eyes keeps the sun out in the mornings. thanks Ellen for that one.
i hear that people get inspired by things i do and how i look at life. i’ve learned that more this week than ever. i actually heard it from a few people and it brightens my day to know i brought sunshine to someone elses. i look at each day with an open mind and i see beauty in little things that people miss when they are busy, stressed, focused etcetera.
i like how ‘etcetera’ looks when typed. there is a small shop in cambridge called etcetera and my second mum used to often get presents and kick-nacks there. it was beautiful and old and had glassware and picture frames and pewter stuff. i think it’s still here. i hope it is.
mexico here i come. i’m only there for about 48 hours. i WILL NOT FORGET CAMERA and will have new laptop (Bobby) there with me. thinking about doing something cool. i’d like to ustream from the resort. i love adventure and new airports. my friend i’m visiting is very chill and wants to relax. and that to me, sounded just right.
