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feeling young and restless

i’m having one of those days. i’ve got heaps to do.  it’s getting done but for some reason i’m just outta my head. i keep thinking, stop it, get back to work, don’t let your mind wonder, wander. i wish the sun would com out. it’s cold in here and i’ve not taken my jacket off all day. i even dressed cute today. sigh.

i keep reminding myself how fun it’s gonna be tonight watching the hills with a bunch of friends at MTV.  i always wanted to be able to do  this. in my last post i was so excited and now i feel all weird.  i said something stupid last night to a friend after a couple drinks and i think that’s what is getting me.  sometimes we say things, it happens. the other day i got so upset over  something that was  not even necessary. i like to think i’m a simple girl but i’m complex and  my mind is like a labyrinth sometimes. i go back and read things tagged writing and i feel some what at ease.

it must be the creativity, left hand, wild imagination sometimes gets the best of me. i’m nervous and excited most the time, i love this feeling but sometimes it leaves me feeling open and vulnerable and i get scared.  take my own advice, build  a bridge and get over it. the other thing is that when you do things online all the time it’s all out there for everyone to see, they can see you, you can see them, the world is somewhat translucent. you can see, but you can’t always see through. this helps, writing it out. i got  new analytics ,the other day. google, i love you but your site stats were just not cutting it for me.  i’m amazed and pleased to see how many people  actually read this thing. i read it everyday and i love it, it’s my outlet and my memories and my life. thank you. i live and i learn and i love you.

it’s 4 and i’ve not eaten lunch yet. i’m tired, i’ve been up late the last couple nights. i need a good sleep tonight. i need a good sleep. i’m going to get something tasty to eat and come back to watch the Y&R at my desk. i feel better that i talked it out.  thank you.

a blog is the best therapy you can have. sometimes you just need someone to talk to.  sometimes, you just need someone.