It’s crazy that when everything is going great you can also feel like everything is crumbling. I don’t mean Murphy’s Law but like just life, in general, has this up and down thing as much as you try to keep a plateau. This week I had two great things come to the table, one that I have been working on in the background of everything else for years, and another potential opportunity to do something I used to do well. I was feeling good about it but I’m at the point in my career that I don’t get too excited until I have the cheque in my bank or a signed contract and we’re making the thing. There was a time I’d get sooo excited about an email. I’d ring mum at work and be like ‘omg mum guess what?” and go on about how someone from some company or tv station sent an email about doing a thing. Sometimes it turned out and sometimes it didn’t. I don’t count chickens anymore. Yesterday I woke up barely breathing with a deathly chest cold and it was hard to talk. The whole day was been hard because being sick makes everything harder. I had to cancel 2 meetings. 1 of which I first cancelled last week because I was sick. I’m going on day 7. I feel really bad about cancelling twice and even worse because I’m sick and I can’t help it. I took the photo above while sitting on the floor in my living room with the camera on the back of a chair. I’ve been wearing this vintage wolf shirt for at least 24 hours and I feel like complete garbage. I put on makeup to go to shoppers to get cough medicine to make myself feel better but tbh…

Seeing so many school photos today made it feel like back to school. The craziest thing for me is seeing friends who have kids that are the age they were when I met them. It’s so weird/cool I guess? Gah, how old am I, I still feel young! Still learning new things all the time, excited about life. This week is an exciting one with all kinds of new experiences and people. Today I am going to the TIFF Stylist Box and then attending Toronto Fashion Week for a show. It all kind of gives me anxiety but this year I’m trying harder than last to prepare, plan accordingly, and not stay out too late. Today felt kind of like back to school because I saw hundreds of kids! Mostly on FB but we also went to Em’s first day, which is exciting. One of my friends said that she has to listen to songs for children on the way to school with her kids in the car. They love listening to these songs because they’re educational, and most of their friends listen to them as well. School has changed a lot, there were no videos like that for us to listen to when we were younger! Now that I think back to actually being in school, I really liked it. I mean, I still left all my projects to the last minute and dragged on doing homework but it was great! School teaches you so many things you don’t learn in class. Problem-solving, giving and taking constructive feedback, working in teams, being a leader, creating. Sometimes I see myself teaching, although that would be kinda like going back to school. But then I think about those who can’t, teach’ and I’m like no way. Maybe just a couple classes…

[iframe id=”https://www.youtube.com/embed/J4z5DiwzF68?list=PLeS2JeMvu-JvSVtq-hJWQkERb7LyJz_vL”] I absolutely love stories like this! Over the past few years I’ve had a few friends help me out and I don’t know if I’d be where I am without their generosity. Sometimes a little here is all you need to get on track or get closer to your goal. It warms my heart to see generous people being surprised with a gift that helps make their dreams come true. I feel it’s important to give unconditionally, giving is it’s own gift! Seeing peoples faces light up when they open a gift or receive a surprise is so wonderful. There’s a playlist of videos BMO created through this Help Given initiative. I love them all, get a tissue, I couldn’t help but have tears of joy. Seeing how happy Arash is when they give him a day off here is so great. [iframe id=”https://www.youtube.com/embed/JLtZPCR9h_s”] Kindness Brings Good Karma A couple weeks ago I helped out a friend who was going through a tough time, I was able to help them but it involved using money I’d been saving for travel. Yesterday, out of the blue, I was invited on a trip to a sunny destination. The two things weren’t related but in the whole grand scheme of the universe, I feel I’m somehow being rewarded for my generosity. More details about that next week! Sending my love for happy holidays, warm wishes for a great new year. To see more from BMO’s Help Given initiative, see here. With love,      * This blog post was sponsored by BMO but the opinions & stories are my own!      

Spring, spring, I am so ready for you. We’re finally getting some nice sunshine the next few days and I can’t wait. This has been the longest winter ever and it’s been getting me down. Just yesterday I started feeling a true sign of spring, allergies! My eyes are kinda itchy so I’m trying hard to not make it worse. Have a bunch of spring cleaning to do around the house. I feel like no matter how much I clean up there’s always more to do! That being said, I do sometimes enjoy vacuuming. It is so important to stay on top of any dust in your home as this can trigger allergies! One of my friends recently purchased a new vacuum after reading this guide to the best hoover for pets hair. She has a couple of dogs and as lovely as they are, their hair can be difficult to clean up sometimes so it is important to find cleaning equipment that has been specially designed for this purpose! Popped out for a nice walk down Roncy this week. I live so close but always forget to spend time there. Love how Lit Espresso makes latte art. Always puts a smile on my face. 🙂 I’m dying to get back on a bike and tour the city. Anyone have one of these kicking around? I’m not sure if I should get a new bike or buy a used one. My old Linus Dutch bike (RIP) was so lovely but also expensive, I don’t think I can bear to go through losing another like that. Title of this post is a great quote my the one and only late Robin Williams from BrainyQuote. Loved that man. Truly felt heartbroken when he passes away. Channeling his great energy today and getting…